heyhowyadoin’mynamesnateqdruen.
i am a person that wants to big things in life but can’t seem to do small things first.
i want to change the world but i can’t wake up for class on time.
this started about a five years ago in my junior year of high school. i don’t know what clicked or ticked in my mind or in my brain, but something in me just stopped caring about school. i honestly and whole-heartedly do still believe this was and is with good reason, i have entrepreneurial aspirations that i wish to pursue and the current public education system does not support that life mentality and any way shape or form; however, i think my die hard disagreement with the way things are run in this modern era has led to a steep decline in my self-discipline. in a way, there are pros and cons to this because i do believe it has helped me think of things in a different way than some of my peers, but it has definitely gone on too long and if i don’t get my shit together soon, it is going to catch up with me. and instead of being a successful figure who made it big despite unconventional methods, i’m just going to be another daydreamer thinking about a buncha really cool “what ifs” all day.
and i don’t want that. i want a good life. so i need to do good work. work. work. actually fucking work. not sit around and think about stuff all the time. think about stuff, then do the stuff.
anyways, right now i’m working on a few different blogs but none of them are really going anywhere because i think i’m limiting myself and non useful or creative ways.
this site’s domain name is (currently) registered as my own full name. while, in the future, i may not want this sort of content immediately on the front page of my name – for now, i am going to use it as a test site where i can just write down whatever i want and feel and do whatever i want and feel with the website design. hopefully i’ll learn something along the way.
oh also i’m starting to “read” (at least skim) a book a day. as of yesterday. so that’s a thing.