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successful sunday clean-up/organizemyfuckinlife/getmyshittoger day… well, kinda. i slept in and called in sick on a commitment then proceeded to actually not do anything with the newly opened 8 hours of free time i had, but i told myself i could justify if i got all my shit together tonight and by glob almighty have i come pretty close…
see, i have had a pile of “desktop cleaning” folders sitting on my computer where i just dumped any and every file that came thru my laptop onto my desktop page/file folder thing or whatever, then when that got too crowded i’d just shove it all in 1 folder then forget about it… this led to my computer getting so overcrowded with stuff it’s hard drive became full and unusable but all my stuff was so disorganized i was scared to do anything with it for whatever reason… but i have finally managed to make a system and have been slowly but surely filtering out all the shit from the disorganized ‘desktop clean’ folders into more organized folders that i can then back up onto my hard drive, then system reboot my computer so i can start from scratch and just pull the things i need from the now organized folders as i need… i’m sure none of this makes sense but to me it’s a huge fuckin’ deal and after literal years of stressing and overthinking about this bullshit i am finally, as of minutes ago, down to the last/FIRST ‘Desktop Cleaning’ folder i made which is also the biggest and full of the most crap but i am still going to tackle it tonight and hopefully if all goes well i’ll even have the confidence to reboot and know all my shit is good and will honestly wake up tomorrow with a huge weight off my shoulders… that would be nice. i know there are much bigger problems in the world, and i tend to overthink and stress about those too, but the fact that i center my thoughts around becoming some world-changing go-getter but can’t even get basic shit like this done is exactly what makes it so stressful… but i’m fighting my way thru it. and i firmly believe once i am done with this things will start to accelerate at an exponential pace. so i’m feeling good. tonight’s gonna be a good night. the first sunday of 2019 is a success, which i think sets a good principle for the year to follow. all good things. some bad here and there, probably, but mostly good. yeah.
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