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drilled a buncha drywall in my garage recording studio today… never really used a drill before a couple days ago which is a lil crazy that avoided it for about 23 years but i’m glad i’m getting to it now… my grandpa is the one who’s helping me construct this room from scratch which is just crazy to me, definitely a valuable skill that has been lost over the generations i believe. i told him i think they took woodshop out of schools cuz they’re tryna make us stoopider, make us less able to rely on ourselves for basic handyman things, so we have to buy everything instead of fixing things ourselves. he thinks it’s a decent theory. i think i’m gonna look around for a local wood working club or something after we get this project done… also it feels good in general to be doing some hard work – manual, physical labor. makes me feel like i am earning this thing. and i definitely won’t slack off on the music making anymore if i’m putting all this work into constructing an actual room from scratch exclusively for music making… to not put it to use after it’s all done, that would be stupid. and i’m not stupid. in some ways. lol. i still like to act dumb, but i need to start differentiating that from my actual intellect and ability to do things… because i have definitely been getting in my own way of doing things for the last few years, but no more. confidence. get shit done. this is my year. clear-minded. attack my goals. whatever that means. consistency. get shit done. all year. every day. here goes nothing/everything.
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